Today marks the beginning of a new chapter in my life—one filled with a mixture of excitement, fear, and hope. I’m heading to Fiji for a year-long work contract, with the ultimate goal of securing a permanent role and a better overall package. But this journey isn’t just about career growth; it’s about building a future, not just for me, but for Ava and possibly even Olaf. I want Ava to join me in Fiji so that we can be together, living a life we’ve envisioned.
The emotions swirling within me are intense. I feel scared, sad, and excited all at once. The fear comes from the unknown: Will I be able to overperform in this new role? Will I adjust to the new environment in Fiji? How will Ava and I navigate this time apart? There are so many questions with answers I don’t yet know, but I’m choosing to trust in the process.
I’m also feeling sad because I won’t be able to be with Ava physically for a while. Distance has a way of magnifying emotions, but I know we’ll be able to stay connected, talk, and support each other from afar. It’s not the same as being there in person, but I’m hopeful that this chapter will bring us even closer together in the long run.
Yet amid the fear and sadness, there’s a powerful sense of excitement. This is a fresh start, an opportunity to rebuild my life after what feels like an extended period of darkness. I’ve lost a lot, and I know that much of it was due to my own choices. But life has given me another chance, and I intend to make the most of it. I’m excited to regain the strength I once had and rebuild my future—one where I am financially secure and emotionally fulfilled.
At the core of my journey is a promise I’ve made, not just to myself, but to my sisters, brothers-in-law, and my doctor. I promised I would never gamble or overspend again. I promised to take my medications on time, to avoid rash decisions, and to always protect my hard-earned money. Most importantly, I promised to take care of Ava and to ensure that I’m able to support her in pursuing her dreams, particularly when it comes to her education.
As I embark on this new journey, I carry these promises with me as my compass. Today, I rise to the challenge, knowing that I have the strength to succeed. I’m choosing to face this new chapter with hope, determination, and the belief that no matter how uncertain things may seem, I am on the path to something greater. I’ve been given another chance, and I won’t let it slip away.
Here’s to a new beginning—a new chapter in which I will not only survive, but thrive.